I am 20-year-old girl. I'm single and really happy with this status -sometimes not-, because I feel free to do anything, to go anywhere, to search anybody at anytime for any reason. It's so much happiness.

I ever thought that I'm bored being single when I was 19. But now, I don't know, it's just like I'm lazy to make a relationship with someone. Maybe it's caused by many bad things happened to my close friends relate with relationship. Fiuhh.. It's tiring just see. I don't have any plan and any preparation for those things happen to me. I even don't imagine it. So I exactly knew that I don't have any clue what should I do if it happen to me. Moreover, I have a bad experience about man. I won't mention it in here, it's very personal.

Actually, It's not a big deal. Though I really really selective in selecting a man, I'm not afraid, or traumatic, with relationship. Traumatic is just for stupid people who can survive because of one or more bad thing(s). And of course, I'm excluded.

I'm searching but not in hurry.
Hey, I'm still 20. It's so many things that I have to explore coz life in this world is just once. I don't wanna regret someday.

From the movie, Changeling.

"Never start the fight, always finish it."

I totally agree.

Everybody knows the feeling of happiness, and so do I. But, do you know what the meaning of this? I'm a little, no, not a little, a little much maybe, curious about it.

I believe I feel happy when...
I win something;
I get something;
I make something;
I do something good;
I can make my friends smile;
I see my parents happy;
I buy something for my brother and others;
I can do something worth for my friends and others;
I make my parents proud of me;
I can afford what I want, every single thing;
I hear good news;
I read a great book, there's so many criterias what kind of great books are;
I watch a worth-watching movies, it's also just like books;
I am appreciated;
I am listened;
I am cared;
I am.................... I don't even know more.

But are those always be? I don't think so. There's always a circumstance when I don't feel happy, though I get all the list. Why? I have no idea. That I know, smile doesn't always mean happy and tears are vise versa.

Nevertheless, there's one thing making me happy, and sure of that. I'm happy being me. No doubt! And it's always be.