Emptiness is Around My Corner

What is emptiness??
For the first time, I really don't understand the meaning about that. How will you feel empty?
How can you know that you feel empty? How can people fall to the emptiness?
I always had those questions in my mind and still didn't understand.

...
Until I feel it by myself..

Now I know what is emptiness.
But unfortunately, words don't enough to describe the feeling of emptiness that I mean.

I just can share a few of my feeling...
I have been a single for 1 year and 5 months, but it's okay. I haven't feel empty since then. So, it's not the problem.
I ever liked somebody in January 2008, and I don't have any idea-until now-how his feeling to me. It still doesn't matter.
I live far from my parents and my brother, but I have best friends who always there for me. Okay, so you know that it's not a big deal to me.
I forgot the guy that I like, so I really don't have a crush to anybody. It doesn't become a trouble because, as I told you, I have best friends.
I share almost everything to them. My time is spent with them all. I didn't have any clue that it became the beginning of me feeling empty.
I was tired, exhausted actually, body and mind. I need them, or just one of them. But, pity I am, they didn't with me. They couldn't go to me.
I didn't prepare for that. I left behind, I fell, I cried, and suddenly I know how emptiness is.

What I feel really make me shocked in the beginning, but on the other side it makes me awake.
Awake that, yes my best friends always there for me, but they have their own life and time.
Awake that at that time I never prepared myself for that situation.
Awake that I have to learn to depend on me, not on them.
Awake that I have to learn preparing my heart for falling into emptiness.

Thanks to God that gave me a moment which made me awake.

And now, I'm still learning.