In the End...

28 January 24 years ago, I was born. Yes, now I’m officially 24 years old. I ever imagined when I was little about how I turned out to be in 24; would I have married already?  Would I have been rich? Would I have been a career woman? And many many things went trough my mind. So, this is a bit amazing for me that I’m really 24, already, haha..

You know, when a woman reaches her 24-year-old, in Indonesia to be exact, many people think that she’s already an adult and ready for marriage, an ideal age. I was thinking that way, too, that it’s better if I could get married in 24. I was. However now, hmmm I’ve changed my mind.

Since a year ago, more or less, I realized something that my dreams were a lot, one of it was married for sure. Until now, they’re still a lot haha.. When I was dreaming to marry early, there were many dreams that I hid inside, that I felt I could reach it after I had married. But it was.

Gotten experiences and knowledge made me learn more about myself. About exactly what I want, exactly what I need, who I was. And I was so grateful that God showed me that I was wrong. Thus from a hurtful experiences, God led my way to find myself, to find what I really want and need in life. Thank God!

So for now, I have a loooooot of dreams to be reached! I wanna get my master; I wanna be a lecturer; I wanna have my own business; I wanna travel around Indonesia, around the globe; I wanna have my comfortable house with a very beautiful seascape; I wanna take my parents to Hajj; I wanna marry when I’m 26; I wanna go to Santorini for my honeymoon (it’s a guilty pleasure anyway :p); I wanna have 2 children; I wanna share my life with the man I love who loves God, me and family, who’s a kind-hearted, smart and responsible; I wanna spend my life by helping others, with my husband and children. I want many! In my mind, there are still a lot if I dig deeper.

To be honest, there’s one thing that I’m curious enough: who’ll be my husband? Haha.. Like, have I met him before, or do I know him, or is he actually my friend, or does he a new person in my life, or when will we meet. I believe that I’m not alone who’s thinking that way, am I? Yes I’m so curious, but the time will come, a very right time, because God’s never late or too early. I believe it that way.

In the end, I'll say, "Aaaaa... so it's him."

No matter how far, how tough, how rough, there's always and end of a journey. In the end.